The end of the year...

2009 has come to an end now, and I would just like to share some thoughts from my friend to you. She was my ex-classmate in my previous secondary school. She is a true, special and nice friend of mine. Today, I got her message, a long and deep one. It was touchful and fulled with love, so I wanna share it out because it is meaningful for me... Would you mind?

It starts like this...

Remember there is a board in our previous school where we used to look at when we were queueing under the hot sun? It is written there...

A lot of people walk in and out of our life, but only true friend will leave a footprint in our heart.

I have always kept a place for yours! In this coming new year, I hope that everything goes smoothly in your life. If you should come across any obstacle in your life, you will jump over each and everyone of it because I said so! And you will jump higher than that, not just being able to strike down the challenges, you achieves more. Fear not! Conquer it and you will find that if you enter this world knowing that you are loved and you leave this world knowing the same, than everything that happens in between can be dealt with! I know I am not yet qualified to say that, but I didn't write what I wrote, I lifted it from Michael Jackson's words, a man who had had enough challenges in his life. How about that?

It was a wonderful gift I have ever received this year! It was so special and meaningful! Thank God for giving me such a true friend in my life...

I wanna tell you, I fell so thankful of having you as my friend. Thanks for your words, and I appreciate it so much...to say it again, don't forget to point back the words to you, because you deserve it more than me! I love you, my friend...

I asked her what is the meaning of last sentence in her words, and she give me this...

Because it was said by Michael, whose life is filled with ups and downs. It makes the words more inspiring, if not to everyone, to me at least! If he could hold on until his last breath, so can we. On top of that, look what he had to endure, it is far beyond anyone can bear. He took the pain and went through his life, with love, strength and passion. Why? People accused him of child molestation, twice; rumour has it that he bleached his skin to be white; tabloids said he bought the elephant bones, slept in hyperbaric chamber, underwent hormone treatment to maintain his falsetto, and had his face completely changed. None of it was true, but people who do not know him got him wrong in every single way, the press didn't want to give him any credit, not until his death that FBI revealed that they found no evidence against him, that people realised that they were wrong about him. How he went through all, LOVE. He knew that he had to go on for the ones that love him. His family and fans.

Great! I start to admire michael of his strength and passion...hope that it is not too late; I knew too little things about michael! But my friend is not the same, she is her big fans, or perhaps his believer. I knew that she was so sad when michael gone; Michael should be happy to have such a believer, in my eyes at least! My friend, what you said is right, we should never give up, hold on until the last minute, for the ones we love, and for the ones who love us! LOVE is too powerful, it can change a person not only outwardly, but also mentally. It change my friend mind, her way of thinking. Recently she is taking meditation; it is a piece of deep thought on a subject, expressed in speech or writing. She thinks a lot about life, right, my friend?

Hope that you are not angry with me to share it out on the blog. I know you won't. Thanks, my friend! haha...

Hope you readers understand it, let us look around for our love, don't miss the things surround you, hope you will get it^^ I hope I wouldn't miss it too, haha^^

*happy new year*

Look at me!

Not feel like leaving, so I want to upload some photos to share with you...hehe...

She is my roommate, Mayuree. I have not seen her for two months. But don't worry, three more days later I am going back to meet her...haha^^

This is me...haha...when I was small...cute right? haha...

Lets look on some photos of me...hehe

ha...this is me la! still cute right? haha...welcome for comment again^^

Welcome for 2010 !!!

Thinking back the moment I have spent through this year, I realize that it was actually a start of my life. I started to doing things in my own in 2009. I started to change from a very introvert, shy, dependent and quiet girl to a more cheerful, happy and not so dependent girl. Everything started from having my first driving licence. It was the first new things I learnt in this year. I learnt how to drive a car, at the same time, I learnt to overcome my fear against new things. I was always given too little courage to step out of myself, to do somethings I have never try before. Even until now, I left the car behind, too araid of driving it again...haiz....can somebody help me?

Besides, together with friends, we took a bus to Mid Valley to join an education fair. Not to say join, but to have a look instead. We have no experience of going to KL without family members, just with some friends. That time was actually before our SPM results were released. We were blurred about our future. We were still finding at that time, what were our interests? Which path should we take, so that there would be no regret in the future? Being on the edge of hesitation, we decided to discover our lives! It was quite funny that we might know how to go there, but we totally have no idea on how to travel back home. Luckily, among us there was a guy, who had helped us a lot in this first try. Thanks for him! ^^

Next, after SPM result was released, I started to apply for scholarships when my dad put an urge on me. I have no idea on how to apply for those scholarships at first. The problem was, there was no internet available at home, so how could I apply those scholarships online? It relly got me headache!!! And I didn't know what kind of scholarship I should apply. There were too many of them. Of course my result was quite well, so I got the qualification. My dad was more kan cheong ( nervous) than me. So, he went to ask his friend, who was a very helpful uncle. He really helped me a lot! Besides, I went to school again to ask my previous secondary school's caunsellor about all the information on how to apply for those scholarship available. Not only them, I should thank all the people that have helped me during that time. Without them, maybe I won't be lucky today to get JPA scholarship.

During that period of busy working and rushing, I got my first step out to asking for help from so many people. These were totally out of me to do that in the past. I felt happy to have that kind of improvement. Although I am still depending on others until now, but I will try my best to step out more...

Talking about first time, actually I got many things to share. This included my first interview in Putrajaya. Getting all ready, I followed my dad in taxi to Putrajaya. I was very nervous that day, especially when I saw so many of people like me, going there to interview with some JPA stafts. Everyone looked smart and proffesional and professional in their formal clothes. They talked in English. This made me afraid to talk with them because my English standard was too low...haiz...( I am study hard to get my English language better now)...and I was too shy to speak out too. Everything went well that day, I made some friends. During the interviewing session, I was being asked questions about computer, technology, internet and so on...That was my weaknesses. I was too lack of knowledge about these kind of things...not knowing what to do, I answered all the questions honestly and the best I can. I am always blessed with love, that's why I was so lucky to get the scholarship!

I was offered to study at INTI University College, Nilai for one and a half year. I was happy with it because the college is just a short distance from my home. New friends, new clothes, new roommate, new living, new food, new laptop, new study....a lot of new things happened on me...there would still be a lot of new experience waiting for me! haha^^

This is my 2009, it was belong to a girl named NG FEI WEN! Yeah! It was special and meaningful...holiday is going to end soon, and I will be going back college three more days later...in this coming year, I wanna wish you all have a happy new year. Also hope that 2010 would be my special and meaningful year again!

Sharing makes me alive!

hehe...what do u think about my photo? opening the album, I accidentally found this photo.
It is me in this photo!
I took it around two weeks ago...not so sure...haha^^
taking my own photos seem to be my hobby now...
haha...I got lots of photos, so I just wanna share with u all...
well, please leave your comment here if you like to do that...thanks~

Merry Christmas^^

Christmas is going to end soon...taking this opportunities, I wanna wish everyone that I love...



MERRY CHRISTMAS



and a HAPPY NEW YEAR^^



be MERRY
be HAPPY
be HOLY



HAVE A WONDERFUL CHRISTMAS^^ HOHOHO~



hOPE you guys are happy n HAVE FUN !!! ^o^

Happy Birthday My Friend ^^

Today is her birthday. I have not seen her during the holiday. We used to see each other almost everyday in the past minus Saturdays and Sundays. Now, when I cast my mind back, this year, we have not seen each other like most of the time, it's the opposite of what we did! We can probably count using our fingers, how many times we have met each other this entire year! It has almost come to an end now. Not only her, but for our gang of friends last time... When can we have a complete reunion back? I wonder...


I am still blessing with love. Although it was not joining by all of them, we still suceeded to have one or two meetings with some friends in holiday. This reminds me of the Morib trip not very long time ago...


We took a taxi to Morib beach that day. That was the first time we called taxi by ourselves to go somewhere to play. There was a total of five of us. Luckily the taxi driver allowed us to squeeze inside the car. haha^^ The taxi driver was an Indian uncle, and he was a very talkative, friendly and funny person. His story made us laugh the whole time in the taxi...


Reaching there, we got some problems at first. There was no locker for us to keep our bags and belongings. So lousy right? Without choice, we just left our belongings not too far away from beach. Luckily all the things were not stolen...haha

Playing on the beach is fun!

We started a "water-fight" there. Nobody could keep their clothes dry that day! haha...

Of course we would never missed this chance to take some photos as memories...

We have a happy time =)

Shadows on the beach marked our friendship!

I like this photo the most...it reminds me of the funny moment that we have~

We should gather more often, just like the past that we did! Enjoy happy time while we are young! =)

Happy Birthday to you, my beloved friend! ^^

What about today?

Today is not a happy day...this is what I thought at first...I couldnt sleep well the whole night. Actually I was too happy and excited at yesterday night. There were lots of good things happened to me =) Because of that, I lied on my bed for hours and hours, thinking back some sweet memories, until I got myself frustrated...*sigh*...although I managed to sleep at last but it only last for a short period. I was again and again awakened up by some stupid noisy sound. I hate it, hate it! >.<

Waking up so early in the morning, I have nothing to do except online. Checking mails, chating with friend...and I receive MMS. It is a christmas wish from my friend...there are my photos inside! It is cute and I like it...thank you for cheering me up...I am now happy ^^


My happiness continues when I received call from my aunt...I am going to her saloon later...haha...I have been waiting for so long~huhu ^o^

I receive it today...MERRY CHRISTMAS !!! Taking this opportunity, I wish happiness will follow all of us wherever we go~

My Saturday

12 a.m. sharp, I sent birthday wish to my friend. "Happy Birthday to you again! =)" I have not seen her for a long time, probably she is busy with her work. I felt quite disappointed last time because she refused to join us out. She said she was busy. She is now in holiday, so what does she doing in this holiday? Working part-time? Or something to do with her family? I don't know...haha...There is a friend gathering on next coming Saturday. I hope she is coming, not only her, but all my friends...some of them are hesitating on joining this Form-5 Friend Reunion. *sigh* some of them asked me who organised the gathering, but I dont know...it must be one of our ex-classmates lo...haha





Nothing special about today...it is just a rainning day, and I sleep until 12.++ p.m. no dream although I wish I have. Why? because yesterday I made a weird but funny dream. I was awakened by mom before I could watch the ending. In my dream, I was a helper in my mom's restaurant. A robery happened in the restaurant, and the robbers were the workers in the restaurant. haha...in the story, the robbery was caused by me! I accidentally found out that the cashier stole some money, so I told my mom. She was very angry and definitely she scolded the cashier (an Indian guy). The cashier was then rushed out of the restaurant, but he came back with a gang of guys. They took away all the money...(I dont know how they rob without any weapons)...haha...I called police afterwards...it seemed like I couldnt communicate well with the policewoman. It took me a long time to explain to her about the restaurant address...the funny thing was, she kept on asking me a lot of things not related to the robbery. Out of the topic at all! And I still answered the question one by one...nothing logic in this dream at all right? haha...





Alright, I got to leave now. My mom is asking me to take care of the baby...so see you later ^^

Blood Donation

30th September 2009- I was studying at INTI University College at Nilai, having my first year of college life. I have experienced a lot of new things there including donating my blood. Before that, I did not even know my blood group.

I was initiated to donate my blood because of bonus mark offered by lecturer. My Malaysian Studies' lecturer, Mr.Raymond Lee promised to give us extra mark for our course work if we could show him the red book ( a small book to record blood donation of someone). At that time, there was a blood donation programme being held in my current college. It was a three-days programme being held by LEO Clubs if I am not mistaken. So, not only me, but the whole class who was attracted by the bonus mark, decided to donate blood.

It was not only for getting the mark, it was about my curiosity to find out how a programme like blood donation looked like. For information, the blood donated will be sent to National Blood Center, and all donaters will be given certificate for their good deeds. Of course there were some conditions to be fulfilled before anyone could donate their bloods. I was happy to be the lucky one to pass the blood test. But unfortunately, some of my friends failed to do so. For women, we must have weight of 45 kg or above to be qualified to donate blood. Of course, your blood must be healthy and is sufficient for you to donate it out. Some of them cannot donate their bloods bacause of low blood pressure. From what I knew, maybe they were lack of sleep the day before. So actually there were some of them said that it was unfair to them because they lose the bonus mark. haha...

It was a painful but worthy experience for me. After having lunch in cafeteria, I followed my friends to donate blood. There were three of us in total. We filled in the form, then we waited for the blood test and so on. Among three of us, I was the second one to do the test. As I told before, I must achieved at least 45 kg to be qualified. I should have no problem with this because I was weighted 50++ kg last time. However, I was still asked to weight my body. The first thought that came in my mind at that moment was "Wow, I have lost my weight!" haha....the needle pointed at 48 kg. And I was qualified too for the next few tests including blood test, blood presure test and BMI test.

Seats provided were fulled in the room. We have to wait for our turns. While I was waiting, one of my friends failed the blood test, so she went back. Five to the minutes later, I was lying on the seat, chating with my classmate who was also donating her blood at that moment. I felt a little pain when the needle stuck in my hand. I was asked by nurse to move my fingers with something in my hand to grap. I asked my friend, they said it was to let the blood flow more quickly into the bag. I donated a pack of 350 ml blood of group O.

I stood up after lying on the seat for a while. I felt everything just alright at first. Then, I walked to my friend who was still donating blood. After a little chat, I felt some headache. I thought it should be ok after some time, so I got some food and drinks, and I walked to the corridor outside the room to let myself sit down and got some rest. But things grew worse. =.= I felt terribly sick. My sight was getting blurred....one lady came forward to me, and she took a cup of milo to me. However, things did not improved.

Luckily, my classmate came. They asked me what had happen to me. But I did not know. I felt numbness in both my hands and legs. I couuld not heard clearly the voice of my friends. I felt weak. My sight getting blurrer....the thing that most scared me was my hand was like shrinking. Oh my goodness! I dont know what had happen to me. I felt hot...no...it was not hot...I felt cool in my hand but I found myself sweating. What happened to me? A group of friends were surrounded me. Some of them asked help from the person responsible. I was then took inside the room again. I remember that I could not walk well, so the guy took me in. haha...I was asked to lay again on the seat, and I was given a drink. Magic...after I lied down, all the sick feelings start to reduce and finally disappeared. I was back to normal again. I was very happy! Thank God! Luckily nothing happened to me...

My classmate were having their class. I knew I was late...haha...but nevermine...I did not see my bag outside, so I guess my friends have took for me. After I took my certificate and a small red book, I rushed to class...my friends took my bag. I show them my certificate. At class, I received by test and quiz paper. I got high marks for both papers. I was happy again. Everything runs smoothly....haha....

It was a great experience. I would like to donate my blood again. ^.^